Happy Holidays

Hi, 8 readers.  I wish that this would take a long time to write, because I love to write, but I know it won’t.

I had a relapse and I got caught.  It was a small one (I’m not making excuses, because it was still indefensible, but it was only a few hours and I remained pretty coherent), but the Collector is shipping me off to a 14-day lockdown and then taking me away somewhere for the Holidays.

I’m sneaking this in from my own separate place so that I know it’s private.

It makes me angry because he gave me booze and pills in the past and he also has a big wine closet.  The wine closet doesn’t bother me much because it’s under the stairs and I never have to see it or think about it. The bar upstairs always stresses me out because it’s always there and I have to pass by it.

To his credit, he took all the liquor out of the bar and put it in a locked room so I don’t have to see it again unless he’s entertaining guests.  I hate to be a jerk, because my addiction is not his problem, but he should have done that all along.

I’m not going anywhere.  This blog is my connection with the outside world.  But I am going to be incommunicado for the next few weeks.

For anyone who hangs in there: thanks for your patience.

And happy holidays.


9 thoughts on “Happy Holidays”

  1. I’m so sorry to hear this, but glad you’re getting help. Living clean does get a little easier, eventually. Get healthy, and we’ll look forward to hearing from you when you get back.

  2. Hi Margo,

    I hope you are well. I am not sure what sort of help you are getting, since I don’t know what a ’14 day lockdown’ means. I hope you can get to meetings or it’s at some treatment facility. It’s troubling to think that he has given you alcohol and pills in the past, but I don’t know how long you have known him. It’s tough when your sobriety becomes entangled with an emotional relationship. I think you need more support than one man to maintain your sobriety.

    Remember. When all else fails, follow instructions. Don’t drink and go to meetings.


  3. Dear Margo,

    I’m sorry to hear about the relapse but glad it was a short one and that you are dealing with it.

    I continue to really appreciate your writing and will look forward to the next entry, whenever that comes. And, in the meantime, I hope you have good holidays as well.


  4. Words cannot express the deep sorrow that this piece invokes.

    Please get well, and more importantly, stay well.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.