His birthday was coming up, and I had no idea what to buy him. What do you get for the man who has everything…? He was harder to shop for than the Surgeon, which is saying something. For Father’s Day I’d given him a Waterman pen that I had inscribed and a piece of a meteor that crashed in the Soviet Union in the 1950s. He loved them both, but now I needed some new ideas.
So, I went to him and asked him if there was a gift he thought he’d like to have.
He thought about it, and then came back to me later in the day.
“There are three things you can give to me. One is list of ten things you think you can do to be a better submissive. You can also make a list of things you think inhibit your progress.
The other two are fantasies you have that you haven’t told me about yet. Something that I could do for you. Things that tell me something about you.”
Over the next week, I sat down to work on my list. This is what I came up with:
- Stop resisting
- Don’t hide things. Try to be more transparent.
- Try to keep an open mind about situations and activities you presume are going to be bad.
- Finish getting your hair lasered.
- Personally follow up on the grocery deliveries to make sure all of the ingredients are there before he starts cooking so that there is no dinner crisis.
- Think about what you can do to ensure his comfort.
- Be present without radiating expectation.
- Express gratitude.
- Make him feel like God.
- Return library books on time so they don’t call the house.
I don’t know? Usually I’m very good at stuff like homework, but this one was challenging. Do you think it’s good? Or good enough? Maybe I should take the chores off….though, seriously, life would be much more sedate and harmonious if the man never ran out of Parmesan cheese again.
On the back of the sheet of paper, I wrote: “I’m afraid of you sometimes and this makes it difficult to trust you and be vulnerable. Also, I think you can be impulsive.”
Then I just sat there and stared at the paper.