Gustave Dore, The Wolves and the Flock of Sheep (Les Loups et les Brebis) 1867. From Dore’s Illustrations for the Fables of La Fontaine.
Wolves possess tremendous spiritual power. They fascinate me. I identify primarily with birds and herbivorous animals–deer. giraffes–but when I was a child, I would fantasize about being a wolf.
I would pore over photographs of wolves in National Geographic and envision the feel and smell of their fur, coarse and hard like armor, with a dense undercoat. The softness of the ears and the terrible long mouth, full of fangs.
I would have nightmares of being raped by a wolf or a werewolf. These were not sexy dreams. They were awful.
I still have these nightmares today.
Terror and fascination. Terror and fascination.